real, raw motherhood
Today is 02/10/2018 and I predict that stress will kill me one day. The worst kind of death possible. A terrible agony that will have started long before my final breath. I’ll be 42 in a month and I have been stressed ever since I can remember. There is a photo of me as a…
We made it to the new year. We’re the lucky ones. Even if you don’t believe in making resolutions, pause a moment and take a deep breath. You are alive. What are you going to do with that life? I plan on enjoying mine. I went through a few dark months in the second half…
So you’re having a baby. We’ve all seen it in the movies: a tiny swaddled bundle sleeps peacefully in his crib; mom is standing by the door smiling, her husband’s arms wrapped around her shoulders as they steal a quick glance at the miracle they created together before they peacefully head to bed to make…
There are only two sure things in life: death and taxes. Most of us are painfully aware of taxes and plan carefully around them, yet most of us turn a blind eye to our mortality. We live as if we were eternal. We spend our days as if they were unlimited. Death has been on…
I have been working a lot lately. Working on a brand new website. A redesign has been due for years but was not a priority. We had other things on our plate. Things like buying a house, raising a baby and recovering from major surgery. In spring of this year, a friend, whose website we…
I went to bed angry. I woke up angry. In my dreams, people were trying to kill me and the washing machine (which looked like a couch) was leaking. I should have recognized the signs… As I wrote before, I’ve made a goal to go to bed early. A few nights ago, I actually fell…
Today is Monday. A new week. I feel so much anxiety. It’s deep in my gut and up in my chest. It makes my breaths shallow and my heart pound. I wish that feeling would just disappear from my life. If only I could trust deep inside me that there is nothing to worry about.…