real, raw motherhood
I usually make a point to not discuss religion or politics. I pride myself in having friends from all walks of life. I have friends who are on welfare and friends who are CEO of multi million dollar companies. I have friends who are agnostics and friends who are devoutly religious. I have Muslim friends,…
Today marks exactly two months since the last essay I wrote. Much has changed since then. My past remains unaltered but I am building a new relationship with it. The present is once again enjoyable. The future doesn’t look so scary. In the past eight weeks, I have surfaced from “the depths of despair”. I…
Warning! This essay might be upsetting, especially if you know me in real life. I wrote it because writing is how I process my emotions. I am sharing this here and hope it may help others who have suffered similarly. My mother liked to point to the big scar running down from her belly button…
I was recently interviewed by Rachel Nielsen for her awesome 3in30 podcast. The episode aired on 05/13/19. You can listen to episode 081 here. The essay below is what I wrote in preparation for the interview and sent to Rachel. Rachel, I’ve been using traveling and jetlag as reasons why I hadn’t yet written my takeaways on the…
Ask and you shall receive. This, I believe with all my heart. Call it God’s answers to prayers. Call it the Universe conspiring. Call it the power of affirmations. Call it the magic of visualization. Call it coincidence. Call it miracle. Call it whatever you want so long as you can embrace it and let…
In honor of my 43rd birthday coming up at the end of the month, here is a list of 43 things that I’ve done, learned, bought or changed to make my life better. (In no particular order) 1: I quit eating meat. (21 years ago). 2: I quit smoking. I come from a country where…
We celebrated her 9th birthday last week. 9 years “old”. Half way to 18. It goes by so fast. Everyone says it because it’s true. But when you’re deep in the trenches of motherhood, and tired day in day out, it’s hard to stand back and get perspective. Then one day you realize the baby…
It’s a new year! I love new years. I love fresh starts. Goals to set. Resolutions to make. January may be one of my favorite months of the year. Full of hope and possibilities. 2018 was good to me. It was filled with travels, good health, achievements (I earned my black belt in Jiu Jitsu)…
This anniversary morning came and we took no notice. The iphone reminded us: three years ago today, I dropped him off at Cedar Sinai hospital in Beverly Hills, California, where a surgeon would remove all 5 feet of his large intestine. Life without a colon is not something you can imagine or prepare for. Forget…
Last week was my birthday. I turned 42. Here is a list of 42 things I’ve learned so far (in no particular order). 1: Do not buy whipped cream or dark chocolate chips in bulk size at Costco. 2: There are more good people than bad ones. 3: Nagging is pointless. 4: Life’s weird so…